Have you ever had a dream that you didn’t want to wake up from? Maybe one where you wanted to see what happened next? well, this is the first time this has happened to me [at least that I know of or that mattered in my life]. i had a dream that things were the way they used to be. a couple of years ago, i screwed up. the biggest screw up that i will possibly ever make. i know, i still make them, but this one very well could have the most impact on my life than any other one ever will. Welp, in my dream, things were the way they used to be. before anything bad happened and i got to fix what had happened, to right a wrong. it was amazing. it only lasted for a few minutes, but i could feel my face smile in my sleep [as goofy as i know i looked] and--anyways, it was weirdly awesome.
the thing is though, i have walked away with a very important lesson over the last few years. see, that mistake that i made, came at a cost. i went thought such a heartbreak, so many tears, so many months of depression. now I’m changed because of it. i think about this a lot, especially when the dark man himself tries to come after me. he knows this is one of my biggest weaknesses. you see, I’m so changed because of this event, that now i wonder....what would my life be like if i went back in time and then fixed it, then came back? have you ever seen back to the future 2 where they *surprise* go to the future but Biff steals the time machine and goes to the past, and it alters the entire world?!?! [p.s. i love that movie] and i think that is exactly how my life would be like if i went from now to the past, fixed things....then came back. my life would be in chaos.
so, as hard as it may seem. and as stupid as i feel for wishing this, I’m grateful that I’m here and for what I’ve brought from it. the battle is no way near over! but everyday, i know that I’m in the potters hands....he can fix my head when it gets broken off. =]
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